Despite my desire to experience a life of excitement and adventure, I spent so much of my early life over measuring risk. I was a contradiction in terms: part of me could be reckless; yet another side of myself was overly cautious. Perhaps, you can relate.
Growing up in my father's church, there would be missionaries come and present a slideshow. Now some younger people may have no idea what I am referring to. This is where a speaker would put up a screen and would use a projector to show still images of photos. This was prior to Columbus discovering America, or what I like to refer to as the seventies.
Tension between desire for adventure and fear
I would be mesmerized by the images of native people in far away lands, the landscapes of other countries, and the missionaries stories of adventure. However, they would then talk about how they lived by faith and trusted God for their financial resources. Ugh! What a horrible way to live I thought. I wanted to have the excitement they experienced but without having to walk out on a limb financially.
As I became an adult, I still struggled with this inner conflict. My inability to resolve it led to a limited and dissatisfying life. It was not until I surrendered and let go of playing it safe that I began to experience the life I always desired.
For too long I said to God and the Universe, show me the path, and I will walk it. But for me it did not work that way. I had to take a leap of faith into what I could not yet see for it to reveal itself.
Harness both your passion and discontent
If you are caught today between fear and dissatisfaction with your current life, I encourage you to let go and step beyond what you can now see. Your two biggest resources in overcoming your fear is connecting to your passion about what you really want and allowing yourself to fully feel the discontent you now feel. The former will draw you forward, and the latter will push you away from what you don't want.
Don't numb the pain. One of the things that delayed my progress most was anesthetizing my unhappiness. Let yourself really feel it. Simultaneously, spend time focusing on what you truly desire until it energizes and moves you. These are the two guides and drivers to attain the life you were meant to live.
For you to acquire the life you desire, it will require going farther than you can now see. Conquer the fear that stands in your way and take the leap into the unknown. I can tell you from personal experience it will make all the difference. You were meant for, and are capable of, more than you are now experiencing. Believe it! A greater life exists for you as soon as you take that leap.
John Hawkins Jr., M.S., L.M.H.C.
John has helped thousands of clients overcome the hidden internal blocks which had kept them from achieving their maximum potential. Furthermore, he has assisted them in gaining clarity of their true life purpose, identifying their gifts and talents, and developing lives of greater meaning and significance.